Post by nemus_amaranthi on Jan 13, 2013 21:44:28 GMT
Results from meditation and soul gazing and new diet plan
Just lately, I have been experiencing what I can only describe as “altered” consciousness. I have been practicing a form of meditation whereby you look directly into the Sun during Sunrise or Sunset and then I use the video below to practice my breathing and meditate to.
I had a moment about 2 months ago, where I was meditating and I felt as if something was “popping” out of where the heart chakra would be, my centre or whatever you want to call it and I let it go.
Waves seemed to rush all over my body and I felt as if I was about to float off and I felt “electric”, I closed my eyes to ground myself and then I had a moment when I was choking, crying but laughing at the same time, like when something really sweet happens to you.
The feeling was like I was part of everything and everything was me, it was wonderful. I felt the joy and pain of all that was around me and I realized that we have two choices of emotions that we can express – fear and love.
It was at this moment that I felt tested in a way, I had one thought about how stupid the human race is and how we are killing one another over conflicts that are too old to matter anymore and the other was that now I felt like this, I “knew” that if everyone came to this realization, then they would not destroy what is part of themselves.
It was at this point that I chose to run with the latter idea and then I burst into tears.
It was like I had know this all my life, yet I was distracting myself with pointless crap all the time and not thinking about how my actions affect others.
I have felt more at peace with myself since having this experience and with everything else. I concluded that all we are is consciousness and everything else is subjective and that duality is an illusion, now I had this unified consciousness, I have lost the ability to fear, as it simply can’t overwhelm me if I embrace it.
I carried on with the meditations over the next couple of weeks and then I started to feel like something else was trying to contact me, like I just had to tune in to find it. What it was I am supposed to find, I don’t know.
When I close my eyes, it’s like a projector screen has turned on in mind and I can see clearly through my eyelids. I saw myself sitting on a sofa, staring straight back at myself! I had to look away as it was way to harsh to look at, it felt like electrical impulses were in my skull.
Also when I relax, anything that is on in the room, like music or the TV, seems to “tune out” and turn in to rhythmic static, like when you listen to a radio and the tuning goes out by itself. I don’t notice it happening, but when I do my thoughts are “Hang on! What’s that?” and it gradually fades back into whatever reality I have been experiencing for all my life.
Last night I saw a huge Gargoyle like creature flying on the spot in front of me when I closed my eyes, it just stared at me and I just relaxed and took it in, I seemed to be able to “control” it.
In my home, I have the sigil of Buer, Orias, Agares and Botis on the walls. I know that Buer is very powerful at delivering visions and Botis is good for keeping the peace at home, but I have not attempted to evoke the others.
I also feel like something is trying to pop out of me again, but I resist it and I don’t know why, fear I guess, but fear of what?
I guess whatever is going on, will come clear soon, I will keep it up and record it online.
I have never really tried getting into Astral Projection and whatnot, I am mostly a dreamy person, I study Jungian Analysis and I love recording my dreams on paper as it makes me dream much more vividly.
I guess that Astral Projection, dreams and visions are not too far removed from each other really.
Just like a radio station, I am tuned into different frequencies and I don’t rule out anything now, where I used to be quite sceptical over apparent visualisations of spirits outside of dreams.
My study into phenomenology has begun apparently.